It’s an interesting film. Not many artists do a documentary about things as they’re still happening anymore – normally it’s looking back.
“Yeah, I know, right? I really wanted to do that. And it’s interesting with this film, I’ve seen it once, right, and I let it out because I didn’t want a reality TV version that hits beats and is very edited, and you go, ‘This is the sad bit, here’s the happy bit.’ I wanted true realness.”
How did you come to work with Paul Dugdale?
“I really wanted him to do it, because it really needed to be rooted in truth. I didn’t want to have much to do with it. I said, ‘I have an idea. I want to record a live album at Hansa Studios in Berlin. I want you to roll everything, and I want you to choose what you use.’ I did not want any part of it because it needed to be an elongated idea rooted in truth. When people see 15 seconds of me on the internet, everything’s so edited and formulaic that you don’t really get to know anyone at all. A big influence was the Get Back documentary with The Beatles. I watched that and thought, ‘Fucking hell, I never knew John Lennon at all.’ I thought I did, but to see them pick the nose or whatever, that’s real, you don’t get that in the edits.
“We really wanted to elongate the scenes, because you see those glimmers of insecurity, and I wanted to do it straight out of the gate, now, while everything’s still new, because if we’ve been touring the album a year, it’s in our blood and we know it too well. This was full of insecurity, full of mistakes, full of this youthful energy, attempting the most monumental music we’ve ever made, in a room that’s been christened by legends. We were like, ‘Let’s just try out, roll it and see what the fuck happens.’”
It’s quite the thing to be that hands-off and unguarded and to let someone else capture you their way. How did you feel when you saw it?
“(Laughs) I fucking hate it, honestly! I don’t know what I’m doing. I've watched it once, and I’ll watch it tonight, and then I’ll never watch it again. But it’s honest and it’s pure, and it’s genuine, in a world of fucking sugar where everything is so edited. I wanted it to be different. Is this the YUNGBLUD documentary people thought I’d make? Fuck no – it’s a black and white, 35mm Berlin art house film! That’s what it had to be. I don’t think we’re ready for a fucking documentary, we’ve not done enough. And I didn’t want it to be this ‘woe is me’ story that tries to grab attention. We wanted it to be really pure. It could have been a million different films, but in this universe, on this timeline, this was the film, you know?”