So it’s all going great, wouldn’t you think? Here before us stands a young group possessed of the winning combination of good luck and hard work; when famous and successful people haven’t been around to lend a shoulder to their cause, the industrious twosome have made their own luck.
The graft is paying dividends, too. Hot Milk have already headlined spacious rooms such as The Ritz and KOKO, in Manchester and London respectively. Before the warmer months are at an end, they will have been seen by thousands of people on the main stage at Download Festival and at Reading & Leeds. As well as this, A CALL TO THE VOID is shaping up to be one of the summer’s – and year’s – most anticipated albums.
But when asked if they’re enjoying being a band that is happening, Han answers, “No, not really.”
Oh. Why not?
“Because I’m severely clinically depressed, so it’s hard to get through to any actual feeling of joy,” is her answer. She doesn’t appear to be joking, either, at least not fundamentally.
Jim tells us that he would say that his bandmate “is definitely ADHD and bipolar” – he looks in her direction – “from knowing you all these years. Some days will be great while some days will fucking be the worst thing in the world.”
Han, meanwhile, explains that “I spend a lot of time in my own head, so sometimes I feel… like it only takes one thing to push me over the edge. Sometimes I can’t seem to see the worth in good news.”
Asked if his colleague is getting better at dealing with these things, Jim pauses for the longest moment of silence in the entire interview. “Erm, I mean, sometimes,” is his answer. He adds that the situation can be “frustrating for me, but I also know that it’s frustrating for her, so I don’t try to take it out on her”.
“Basically, I’m functioning,” Han continues. “I’m getting through the day. But I don’t help myself. I go out on three-day benders and think that’s going to cure it, you know what I mean? I think that if I go for the short-term happiness I’ll be fine, but then I wonder why I feel like shit for three days afterwards. Then I take things out on my mates. And then I come round and think, ‘Oh, today feels more level.’ But it is a struggle. If someone were to ask me if I was happy right now? Well, it depends on the day. So I don’t know. I’m just a bit of a mess, to be honest.”