Clearly, Johnny will never be jaded. He might have encountered frustration along the way at not being where he wanted, but the art itself has never lost its shine. Nonetheless, the overwhelming triumph of AMERICAN MOTOR SPORTS wasn’t something he could have ever foreseen. In fact, he’d learned not to attempt to speak future success into existence – the last time he did that, he was humbled.
When he released 2022’s GOBLIN HOURS, Johnny thought he’d booked his spot in alternative music’s hall of fame. He hadn’t. “I really had a big ego about that record, and I still like it, but it just didn’t do what I wanted it to do,” he admits. His options were self-reflection or self-victimisation – but he knew better than to blame the outside world. “I’m making music because I love making music, but it’s a collaborative thing between me and the fans. I want to make things that they like. I’m not here to be selfish with my music, but I like making music that connects people.”
That was when he took a knife to his ego. Johnny knew he was a good producer but had to admit to himself that songwriting was where he fell down. Rather than being defeatist and admitting failure at the thing that he loved, he relentlessly worked to improve. He estimates he wrote 300 songs for AMERICAN MOTOR SPORTS, churning out one a day, pushing through the times that he feared he was simply treading water. The breakthrough was the effervescent single BETTER HELL, but the dam didn’t burst till he was at least 100 songs in.
Now, he can look at that time with far more positivity. “I think that ego can be the death of creativity in a lot of ways for me,” he says. “I think that I wouldn’t be ready for the success of AMERICAN MOTOR SPORTS [without that experience]. I wasn’t ready for it mentally with GOBLIN HOURS, but I’m ready for it now.”
At this moment, he’s six or so hours away from an incredible sight. That night, Kentish Town is heaving – even as openers South Arcade come on, the stalls and balcony are full, the only space left to stand at the very back. Everybody knows every word. They sing at a volume far beyond what most artists of this size get until they hit arenas. They cheer and chuckle at Johnny’s amiable stage chat, and when he brings up his new favourite food, they start a chant of “BEANS ON TOAST!”
Watching it all, it’s impossible to deny that something is brewing here. The fans who have crossed over from the Sleep Token shows have clearly brought their enthusiasm – something that’s been responsible for the meteoric rise of that band. And while it’s the end of Bilmuri’s tour here, this is arguably the start of something even bigger.
Not long before they wrap things up, Johnny says it himself: “This is the best day of my life.”
Bilmuri return to the UK in August to play Reading & Leeds – get your tickets here.
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