Through making FEVEREATEN and playing its songs every night to thousands across Europe, it’s become even more apparent how an artist’s life never stops. And for Amy in particular, the joy and success they’ve achieved thus far has been counterbalanced by sadness and grief.
“I lost my mum six weeks ago. We had her funeral two days before we left for this tour. It’s such a trip, playing a fucking stadium, [which is] so monumental and crazy, and then I come offstage and my mum’s died, really [recently]. It is really jarring,” she explains. “For the most part, I’ve been having a really good time, but it’s the same for every artist; they’re all going through shit that nobody knows is happening. You assume that someone’s living their best life. People in the audience will probably look at us and assume we’ve got everything together, we’re rich as fuck, everything’s perfect, and it’s really not the case.
“Everyone usually gets really low when they come off a tour because you switch up your whole life again, but also I’m coming home and I don’t have my mum anymore. I had no time to process that before we left, like, being in my flat every day and not being able to call her. I’m gonna have that now at the end of this tour.”
Thankfully, Amy has a strong support system in her dad, brother and sister-in-law, but her experience is a stark reminder of how we truly can never understand what someone is feeling, unless we know them personally.
“Sometimes, if I’ve been feeling a bit tired or crabby, I feel this intense guilt that this is the best thing that’s ever gonna happen to me, and I should be enjoying every single moment as much as I possibly can,” she continues. “It’s such an extreme situation to be put in, obviously positively, but you just have to have an element of humanity that you apply to yourself. I don’t have to have the best day here every single day, and that doesn’t mean I’m failing at enjoying being on tour.
“No person is perfect. Someone that’s obviously put someone in active harm and is a real piece-of-shit human, I think that people need to know about that. [But when it comes to] making a [small] mistake or something, we all fuck up sometimes, and you don’t really know anyone’s full situation.”