There’s plenty of love for Courtney in the wider scene, too. As Spiritbox have surged in popularity, she has been held up as one of the most prominent figureheads in a time where women are leading the charge in one of music’s most notoriously gender-imbalanced genres. For the moment, however, she doesn’t consider it a source of pressure.
“I don’t feel like I’m selling a personal brand. It’s music being commercialised, and I feel like people are projecting their feelings onto the art more,” she says. “I feel that it’s a privilege if anyone considers me a role model. Maybe when there’s more people, I’ll feel a bit more pressure in that way, but right now, when you’re a new band, you don’t have crazy fans that are obsessed with you, it’s more nice people that want to give you a hug and be like, ‘Hey, we’re proud of you.’”
But for all of the anxiety, trepidation and imposter syndrome that comes with being in the band of the moment, there are opportunities to personally bloom. Courtney has grown enough to feel a slightly removed from some of the more sorrow-drenched lyrics on Eternal Blue, and a little further away from its feelings of loss and depression. She isn’t reliving those emotions onstage in the same way she used to, but now, she’s connected to that time in a way that provokes “a happy cry instead of a sad cry”.
“I feel a lot more confident in myself,” she adds. “I feel like, in the industry, I have something to prove. But I don’t feel like I have something to prove to our fans. I feel like I’m performing for my friends. They know that I’m going to hit that note, that Michael is going to nail the solo, that Zev is going to nail the drum part. When I wrote those lyrics, I had so much doubt and anything that felt confident in those songs was almost a fantasy for me. Now, I just feel like I have more fun.”