When she got tired of California, Nessa Barrett had to find some kind of comfortable reality in LA. She retreated to a high-rise that could’ve been designed by Bugatti, a sleek black obelisk that overlooks a handful of neighbourhoods in the city-state. Inside her space is white – white sofas, carpets, surfaces – spacious but cocooning and most importantly safe. The 20-year-old doesn’t leave except to go to the studio, go on tour, or to occasionally see her three older friends. She doesn’t drink or party, doesn’t socialise with people her own age, just stays in with her Persian cat Kitty – also white – writing in her gratitude journal, doing tarot, playing guitar or filming TikTok videos.
When Kerrang! step inside her ivory tower, the tiny four-foot-10 artist greets us wearing a riding top, jodhpurs and equestrian boots. She lays her black riding hat on the table, pulls up a chair, caves into it and starts nursing a vape. Kitty is on the sofa, eyes are locked onto her.
“The breeder showed me him and I felt so connected with him, then I found out he was born the same day that my best friend passed,” she says of her cat. “So he just brings me a lot of comfort. He’s so connected with me. He falls asleep on my chest. He wakes up in the morning. I swear he talks back to me.”
Within months of being on TikTok, Nessa was one of the most followed people on the app. After signing to Warner, she released the first of many haunting singles – the devastating ballad Pain – and reintroduced herself as Billie Eilish for teens who love dark pop-rock. Part of the reason young people gravitate towards her is the way she freely speaks about her borderline personality disorder and makes art from her struggles with mental health. Across the couple of hours we spend together, her body language is both vulnerable and self-soothing as she wraps her arms around herself or folds them as she freely hands over intimate details of her life. She doesn’t know any other way: she’s revealed her highs and lows like the aftermath of her suicide attempts, subsequent hospitalisation, grieving best friend Cooper, and her journey to the top, where she’s the happiest she’s been in her first two decades on the planet.