Elsewhere, the album takes just as hard a look inward. On burn down my house, Dan Searle’s lyrics deal with mental health. Not only in the weight of one’s own struggles over the past couple of years in which fear and angst over the pandemic were compounded by human contact becoming barely legal, but in the continuing question mark over why it’s not practically seen as a real health issue.
“It’s really fucking bleak,” admits Sam. “It's a song that’s talking about mine and Dan's mental health, but I think it's more open in terms of where we're at societally. There’s discussions about mental health, and charities and people doing stuff, but it's still not as real as people might think it is. It's not an actual, proper conversation. So much of it is just saying, ‘It's okay not to be okay’, but we’re still not having the really fucking hard conversations – asking somebody if they're alright, and saying, ‘Are you actually?’”
For Sam, this was a question to which the answer was ‘no’. A year before Architects guitarist Tom Searle passed away in 2016, the singer began to take antidepressants. Over the pandemic, with the world being a more confusing place than usual, he doubled his dose. This helped keep darker things locked away, but so was everything else. Instead of depression, he felt nothing.
“I don’t think there’s anything wrong with antidepressants – they saved my life. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be here,” Sam says. “But when I doubled the dose, I went too far. I just felt absolutely nothing – no joy, no sadness. There were points in it where I was like, ‘I just want to feel something. I want to feel sad, I want to have some sort of emotion.’”