In reality, Bonnie is a walking contraction. Ask her what she feels she brings to the pop-punk scene and she’ll say: “I dunno… I’m an alright gal. I can bring some fun. We can drink some beers and have a good time!”
Ask her to describe herself, though, and she struggles to find the words.
“What’s another word for light-hearted?” she asks Kerrang!. “Like, not serious? A joke?”
She laughs at herself as she speaks, before we offer up ‘easy-going’.
“That’s it!” she says excitedly. “Although a joke works too…”
It seems that this chilled-out nature was born from her parents being the complete opposite. With a mum “so extroverted it’s inspiring” and a “worrywart dad who’s totally not chill”, young Bonnie simply took a step back. “I was just like, ‘Who needs it?’” she chuckles today.
On the surface she appears to have it all: she’s fun, funny, and super-talented. She’s the kind of person everyone loves to be around, the perfect frontwoman and oozes star potential… but underneath it all she’s an insecure wreck, and growing up she suffered from crippling shyness.
“You couldn’t get me to do anything, it was so bad,” she recalls. “My ex’s mum made me go to an open mic night, and I didn’t wanna be there. After that, I was like, ‘Maybe music’s not for me,’ but when I got up onstage with my first band, and I had people around me, I was a lot less nervous.”
She no longer wants to vomit when stepping out to play live, but she battles daily with other pressures that come with being in a rising band. Like being expected to regularly churn out awesome new music.
“I’m pretty insecure and unconfident,” she admits. “I always feel like I’m trying to prove myself, and comparing myself to other people. I’m always doubting myself and thinking I’m not good enough.”
These are thoughts that leave her feeling ‘razzed’, which when put through Aussie-to-English translation means ‘kind of annoyed’, apparently. Not that she ever opens up or tells anyone she’s struggling.
“I don’t really voice these things,” she adds. “I just keep it to myself. It’s gotten a lot better since the band took off ’cause – and it’s sad to say it – you get validation from people’s [positive] opinions. But the way things are growing now, there is a lot more pressure, and that adds more doubt, and insecurities come up all over again.”